Lonely

i'm soo freaking lonely,i feel like i don't have any friends anymore, and a whole bunch of 200 people in my msn list is going to be cleared, why add those who don't even chat with you?

keat tatt arrange for hiking but no one turned up, ME AGAIN, so what the hell, i wont turn up too, instead i'm going off to sleep pissed off, this isn't the first time and its not the first hundred times too, and he arrange for gym every friday, gosh, spending 50 bucks on gym for a month and i don't think he'll actually go, what a waste of my money which will be spent ALONE

playing piano like the whole day, and i feel so sad playing those waltz song which makes me sadder,i don't know what the feeling of being around friends are anymore too, its like dim sum time with danny and the rest, i don't know how to talk anymore, i don't know what to say nor i don't know how to be friends with you guys anymore, maybe this is the big change after sec school, being more alone means being more mature, but its suffocating, who gives a damn about friends anymore, i can drive myself anywhere buying what i need,living a life.

i hope in 50 years time, i still remember you guys