Time will go on

i just want to know what the meaning of true friends are anymore, those who left you out of thier lifes just because they don't like you are true friends? those who backstabs you are true friends? those who never understand you are true friends? those who want you to be different just for them are true friends?

but yeah, those don't deserve a friend like me then, i know the rest of the "friends" are just being told by keat tatt, you've always wanted to lead, now no one will fight you, you're thier leader, you're the winner

sorry wai loon LOL you're one funny fella, if people leave you, you try to keep together, but if they disconnect you from them, then its to move on, its just life .

in the future where we do meet up again, i hope you'll still remember me, but if you don't, i'm still ok with it. Best regards to "friends" in life .

3 years ago memories

meet up with my prefect friends yesterday and was omg i have not been doing this like 3 years ago,michelle,shze chen,wayne ken, chee keong,sherren,li-ji,jin aun and I, and i feel bad for jin aun man, he has working and he has to rush halfway in the movies, i'll make it up 2 u :D

Today i bought my Gatsby Moving Rubber Purple and its so good! i've style it at night and it could stand for 1-2 hours, rather than my old RM42.90, could only stand for 10 minutes, now all i've left is a freezer hairspray which allows my hair to stand up to HOURS rather than 1 or 2 :P if i still got time, i would like to dye my hair dark brown almost black :D its asianstyle~!!

my driving was cool, lucky i remembered the roads or else i can't see in the dark, i have problem see-ing lights in dark places, it takes up alot of my sight, lucky theres sherren to tell me :D its good training for him too since he didn't get P license yet.

i'm preparing for Langkawi trip that Jun Hoeng has planned, i've decided to give them another chance, if this is another F**king shit, then its over, time could really change a person. i can play titanic really well already, looks like i'm not turning my uncle down for the music band, i'm the pianist :D thxbai~!!

LYN Addict

i'm becoming a LYN Addict now -.- http://forum.lowyat.net and i'm mostly at the Men's Style & Fashion thread, they really teached me many things about MEN, im gonna own the Gatsby Moving Rubber Purple Soon and i also took a picture today while my sister is having tuition at the computer site of the house ;) enjoy!


today piano was awsome! i mastered half the song in the class from freshman :D the song is "My Heart will go on" Titanic

i've been thinking alot, should i go for the Group Music Class tonight like in 30 min time, because if i go, i dunno how they want me to pay them since today is the last tuesday of feb's month, maybe start out next month would be best of all opinions, btw JOGGING TODAY WAS TIRING, before i jog i ate 6 pieces of nii kuay + thai chilli, yummy!

going to check out whats new on Lowyat.Net(LYN) now, tchauz!

When you see my face, hope it gives you hell

today was like the best badminton matches i've ever had, but it seems that theres people leaving to overseas again, but today was crowded and i played 6 games and lose 1, i'm trying to run more to lose weight as much as possible xD

tomorrow me and sherren are going out, and we'll see what are we going to do since i can drive and he'll be helping me if i have any problem, its kinda a good team, but its 150 thousand percent xD lol better than being alone and learning mistakes the hard way.

i've just took some pictures of myself and i think its pretty UGLY, i look so fatz when my body curves, heres some pictures you can enjoy xD

i've lost from 72kg to 65kg now, partially to 64kg, so i'm going to keep jogging,gym-ing and sundays badminton, so far it took me about 2 months, so yeah, i'm feeling good

Your Lies Have Killed Me

To my fellow friends, yeah, fuck you all, i'm not going to reply and msg you guys anymore, i'll move on as you all wanted, you've always left me out of stuff, that i understand, you've always spoken secrets in mandrin so i couldn't understand, yeah i fucking do understand, i'm just not telling you earlier on, everytime i see you guys sigh, i know the pain and i cheer you guys up, i made some funny stuff, sometimes i think about it and i feel stupid, but you guys got cheered up, who cares if i'm stupid, you guys stayed with me everytime i waited for my parents after an event, it made me feel like a child but i appreciate it, actually, Keat Tatt you always tell me that SK Changed alot, so has you, i never voiced out, you arrange events, no matter how hard, i'll support you even if i get scolded, you know, i felt like we're a family, but now you left me out in every single thing, you think that its because you guys have jobs, have money, you can hang around people who do too, for your fucking information, i'd spent money for you guys to be able to have fun together, i'll try my best not to bother you guys anymore, thanks for everything .

I Will Try To Forget Your Lies, Your Pains, You .

Shapes

Creating stupid stuffs in my mind again, this time is to remember myself that i still am with people i called "friends" i'm not so sure myself too, but i know that they have been with me long enough for i trust them, i'm putting in a shape in my mind too, its Noctis

Noctis, i've just admired him so much i feel like he's somehow what i call a "man" but he is still a fantasy, everyone would like to be him, who doesn't, i've made my choice that if keat tatt, danny or jun hoeng doesn't wants to go tomorrow, then i'll go gym myself, i just need some space too

today i went to school and was like "HAH PEOPLE AT LAST! I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE" and i meet jin aun there too, he's finally wanted to work, and working at a place where i introduced to him, its a good place for him since he teached me almost everything i should know to pass the exam, he should be a really good teacher, maybe a professor 1 day, i would not be suprise if he is a professional in stuffs 1 day, but i'd be if he became god

I still have doubts about my own friends, and somehow i take back trust and kinda time to frictor because i'm sensing theres something inbetween me and my friends, jun hoeng was telling me that they told him about things for plans and not to me when i'm also registered with them

btw, i'm so damn fustrated when it comes to friends, are they somehow chicken or something not to confront me face to face? -.- i'll just play along with the alongside until you tell me the truth, now that i've think of it, maybe i should go back to school more often and get new friends, sometimes people made wrong decisions and i think i just did .

Will to carry on .

so i've been thinking about you lately, can hardly think about anything else, i can't think straight sometimes, its like asking a blind question where you already know the answer repeatly over and over again,although we're a world apart, but i'm going to try my best to win, usually, i discuss this over people i trust most, but now i guess i'm on my own.

i have not been jogging for the past 4 days, i feel bad myself, so today i'm off to jog and i'm going to sweat a thousand drips,kills me or not, i don't think i care anymore, by the way, my friends are all fit and sturdy, if i don't shape up, i'd end up being small little unfit kid, muscles are probably the best solution now :)

jun hoeng,kenneth,soo liang and yong shen took thier car exam today, looks like they all passed, congratulation to them all, will miss you guys when i already do ;)

Mcdonald Memories

before lastnight, i asked li-ji and jun hoeng to come to my house before we start our journey, i totally forgotten about jin aun LOLX kesian you!! so i asked them to come to my house at 8am and that super hero li-ji said "i'll reach you house at 7am la" so i wake up at 6.30am and rushed and rushed and rushed more, its 7am and i waited, and waited and waited its 8.45am WTF i'm so damn tired,so i called them and li-ji is still asleep, SUPERHERO! so jun hoeng arrive at my house and i couldn't wait for li-ji any longer GG! i drove jun hoeng breakfast and meet up with jin aun and li-ji.

after eating we went for a ride, on my car and i parked infront of our old school, we're like stalking the school watching thier every move, i see alot of people taking off thier cloths to set up some stuff, must be really hot there, later we drop jin aun and li-ji at school and me and jun hoeng went GYM WOOTS! he's like going 113km/h on the pityful jogging machine WTF

later we went to MCDonald XD we took some pictures here and there but not all are nice onces, its just that li-ji's picture taking sucks more than anyone else -.- xD

Tournement

Today felt like i had alot of fun, at the same time i lose the badminton tournement, but i tried my best not to lose alot, they count the spread of our team, and our team won! we got towels and we're like omfgwedidwinorlybuuuyarly, the towels are the prize and we'll be using it next week xD badminton rocks!!!!!

after badminton we went to ananda to have dinner, ananda is an indian restaurant with the finest indian food, the tosei WAS GODLIKE the chicken curry WAS OWNING the food totals up HEAVEN, i think i put on some weight right after losing weight xD

i'm off to play with my friends in gg-client/garena tchauz!

My Life Would Suck Without You

Today there was a friend outing and its damn fun, but still, i feel left out, its because i've not been with kt,danny and mac for sooo lonng, but this has made me more mature, gym was great, all i care is the sweat that comes out!

driving today was insanely fun, not only insanely, BUT MORE! parking with jun hoeng rocks man, i'm sure he'll pass his P driving exam with flying colours, he already knows everything, its valentine today, and i don't have anyone to celebrate it with, its a shame, this year i don't school anymore, shouldn't it be lots of lots of time to find a girl? no, i'm a really messed up piece of guy, thats exactly why no one would want to be me or with me ;)

speaking of that, i'm trying to change my attitude, and by doing that, i'll have to keep quiet, i'm already a very quiet person, by keeping more quiet i'll be muted, how i wish someone can just tell me to be more of the fun guy, i'll change my attitude to have fun all day and not care any other problems besides surviving and doing extraordinary stuff, maybe one day when i lose my mind, i'll do it and i would like to do it with ~you~

sweaty and sticky, i'm off to bath, my hands are starting to feel the pain already from gym ;)

Late

its been awhile since i blog, like 4 days, its been a very tiring and depressing week, yesterday li-ji,jin aun and I were like hanging out in queensbay again, and we had alot of fun, its kinda a weird thing for me because i have not got that much fun this month, i've been sick the whole month too, and i'm not recovered yet ):

we watch benjamin button and it was like the longest show i've ever watched, its such a beautiful story, the idea was so out of the box, i really didn't know such people existed in this world but if there are people like him, i would pity them so much.

i'm going to my old school later, gotta fetch some friends and my driving isn't very good yet, but i like challenges, and i'm going to survive!

i'll try to blog more next time, bye!

Lonely

i'm soo freaking lonely,i feel like i don't have any friends anymore, and a whole bunch of 200 people in my msn list is going to be cleared, why add those who don't even chat with you?

keat tatt arrange for hiking but no one turned up, ME AGAIN, so what the hell, i wont turn up too, instead i'm going off to sleep pissed off, this isn't the first time and its not the first hundred times too, and he arrange for gym every friday, gosh, spending 50 bucks on gym for a month and i don't think he'll actually go, what a waste of my money which will be spent ALONE

playing piano like the whole day, and i feel so sad playing those waltz song which makes me sadder,i don't know what the feeling of being around friends are anymore too, its like dim sum time with danny and the rest, i don't know how to talk anymore, i don't know what to say nor i don't know how to be friends with you guys anymore, maybe this is the big change after sec school, being more alone means being more mature, but its suffocating, who gives a damn about friends anymore, i can drive myself anywhere buying what i need,living a life.

i hope in 50 years time, i still remember you guys

Being Sick

i feel so sick and tired, i could hardly do anything the whole day, my sore troat is hurting me like crazy

dota was super fun, i took like 3 hours killing the tauren chieftain, he has like 11k hp but the regen is like 1k per second, i have to lure him out then blink behind him to block him then hit him until i die and do the same

gunz today was cool, played with gaedious and he owned me xD tchauz

Part of this world

today i'm eating more than usual, actually i'm eating more than usual nowadays, maybe i'm growing up and i need more food in my tummy, yumm...

usually i jump onto my comfortable bed and i would sleep even if i just woke up, but i can't today, weird, tried so hard yet failed, so i went and jog in the park, and guess what i see ;) shes wearing dark sunglasses and shes holding a dog, shes pretty but i think shes blind, i've got a heart for those kind of people, i would donate to them whenever i saw people like that and i mean born like that, they didn't deserve this stuff and if someone were to pull a prank on me about it, they'd successfully get a laugh, so i smiled everytime i jog passed her in the circle, the dog was cute too, skinny :3

came back and EATTTTTTTTTTT , then i went dota, the game was quiet, our team got feeder, and guess what, the feeds but he himself grows into a holy sai, out of sudden garena lags and 2 of our mates left the room disconnected, the host was pointing fingers and saying us noobs, guess what, we fucked them 2v5 and guess who won, us, when we kill them until holy sai, they leave and they say us noobs, WTF who the narbs? us or them? 2v5 , 5 person ganging on us and they all die and say us noobs, i hate those attitudes, get a life pls stop blaming other people, you're like those of BN parties that points fingers

Right from wrong

Looks like i'v eaten too much today, pizza + coke + fries + ice lemon tea + chicken noodles + chocolate cake, all of those in one day is pwnage, i could have grown 5kg of fats, but the outing was priceless, LI-JI HAPPY BIRTHDAY, its was 2 good movies, The Wedding Game and Red Cliff II, Red Cliff II pwns everyone, i love the show and i love it more when watched with friends, and not forgetting watching it with friends + ice lemon tea + 2 times toilets!

after watching those movies, my eyes were like super blurish, and shit i've got to drive home when my dad brings the car,so i told dad, i guess its a bad idea if i do drive home.. later when i reach home, i regretted it, I SHOULD HAVE DROVE HOME -.- there wasn't even a single car on the road, wtfux FENGSHUI?

came home and took out some cakes and eat while watching tv with my sister, shes watching those movies like over and over again but who cares, i'm super tired already, anyways driving was still unstable for me, i'm actually taking quite some risk everytime i drive, but i'd risk it all to take less risk.

going to go dota soon, keat tatt, jun hoeng,ryan are waiting for me, i've promised them i'd make a good game for us all, and i'd help improve teamwork, including myself, hope i don't do any mistakes at all, i'd better wash my face to be more observant, byee!

Journey

The road was super freaky, i guess i'm still unstable controlling the car, but i'll improve as fast as possible ;) tomorrow going queensbay with friends YEAH! too bad most of them got work~

i'm feeling much of a lonely person nowadays, i'm meeting too little person at a very long time, i feel like i'm going to go nuts if i keep continue staying at home, maybe a job would sound good. I'm currently hearing sad and slow songs, no idea why, i'm single btw, so its kinda stupid of me listening sad and slow songs -.-

i'm usually always online with wei xian for the past few years, its just that now, he's busy and i'm not very comfortable with myself, this feelings are just so sudden and unexpected, maybe wei xian "was" right, my PUBERTY? LOL

i've been sweating so much today, maybe its because i've been thinking so much, i've even tried making up what i'm most probably doing if i'm at school with friends, yeah, i make up weird things and put inside my head even if its a white lie, but it helps so much, its what kept me moving .

Whys?

today theres alot of things going on on my mind, its annoying to think about it, but its real, if i don't do it now, then when will i think about it?

piano class rocks as usual, i'm coping well and getting better, i'm learning a newer harder song xD yay! i've been wanting to go queensbay with friends, it is just lonely and boring at home, i wonder when can i go out for an adventure with friends, someone who i can have fun with and of course without regrets

as a teenager, i understand now why theres so many problems inflicting life, we are naive because we have not face what comes infront, we judge books by thier covers, we play games based on how other people play it

got my P license at last, already put it up the car ;) going to start driving on the road asap, and btw now that i see other people just starting to get thier L license, i do not regret doing it early, its part of life too, doing stuff that doesn't regret you later! it applies to studies, now that i see some people going to college, i pity them, economy crisis is the main thing, you come out early and get no job!!? i'm taking the risk too, but no regrets >;)

Boreness

its been a pretty boring day today yet i have so many things i wanted to do, bath, train the piano, watch a movie, sms some friends, make arrangement for 5th february, download new music, read other people's blogs, and update all my software -.-

today's excercise wasn't good at all, so little sweat, went sherren's house and watch him play games, dota sucks today, so many leavers and noobs, if its not because of them, our world would exist a better place to live, with thier noobo attitude, we would die of war, thats why only those who only treasure patience and a mind to think about how others feel rules most things without getting those things damaged

btw,i'm doing friendster and facebook back,since i am still bored doing nothing -.-have to go bath now xD tchauz!

Shy & Silence

Early in the morning i woke up at 6.45am and i could not feel tired at all, 7.30am i reached the restaurant waiting for friends, thats the whole point of not tired i guess, since my friends weren't there yet so i took a walk at the market until 8.10am and guess what, they arrived in a pack LOL, there were 7 of us eating dim sum and thanks to prozor keat tatt, we took too much food xD

after dim sum we went and take a walk and chat at the damn geng botanical garden, its so peaceful and i could overthink what i've done on and off, reminds me of our times together, took pictures and go home

went badminton and lost like nobody's business, 8 games 6 loss 2 wins, my focus out of sudden very weak, i must have had too much in the morning ): anyways dota was as usual, sam damn geng LOL

will be going to see movies, bye!